The Hurt Is Worse The Second Time

I am a hospice nurse, I get it.  It’s the job I signed up for.  I know that I will be helping patients, who are terminally ill, live out their final days with dignity, freedom of choice and, as much as I can provide, free of pain.  Often times, as with all things beyond our… Continue reading The Hurt Is Worse The Second Time

The square peg in the round hole

  Cuts heal.  Incisions close. Infections resolve.  But, does the pain of loss ever really heal?  That is a question that I am often asked and quite honestly don’t always have the answer for. The complex manifestation that we call loss is such a convoluted mix of emotions, feelings, thoughts and memories.  Age is a… Continue reading The square peg in the round hole

The Certain Uncertainty

This particular blog has been hard for me to write.  Not because of anything in particular, but because I had the idea for what I wanted to express, but, getting the words to flow together was another story.  My words, just like our lives sometimes do, just would not meld together with any rhythmic flow. … Continue reading The Certain Uncertainty

When Did You Go?

Where you there when you could no longer speak?  Was your soul still present?  Could you hear us all around your bed.. talking with you… sometimes happy.. sometimes sad? When was the moment that you let go? A lot of times, when people are passing, they fall into states where they are no longer responsive. … Continue reading When Did You Go?

A Mixed Bag

As I often do, I found myself thinking about things I could blog about tonight… Should I talk about the lady with dementia who responds to basically no one and nothing but responded to a chocolate doughnut I brought her? Or would it be better to blog about the man, whose wife is clearly passing,… Continue reading A Mixed Bag