I’ve gotten kind of used to it. Sometimes, when I enter a patient’s room, I notice some family members turn and whisper. It’s almost like when I tell people what I am lucky enough to do and they give me the heartbreaking face while lowering their voice to a whisper. Maybe it is because of… Continue reading The Whispers
Leave it at the door Don’t bring your work home with you That might work for a garbage man or maybe a tree cutter, but those rules don’t apply to a hospice nurse. I am probably thinking about you from the moment I shut your door behind me. I am probably still thinking of you… Continue reading All The Time
It’s a little chilly in your bathroom, but, you are sweating and have the fan strategically blowing in your face. Your color is pale, almost like a pre tanned vacation photo except you have look that alerts others you aren’t well. Eyes are sunken, the brightness that once was there is no more. The dark… Continue reading Thank You
I have to admit that I was super apprehensive about making this career change. Death is something that scares the bejeezus out of me. As a critical care nurse for many years, death was often times an answer to endless suffering. That doesn’t ever mean that I got comfortable with it. But, because I never… Continue reading Week Two or Weak, Too?
Would think that a few days away and I would be able to not think about work. That’s the thing about nursing though – there is always something… that takes you right back into your work world. Not that these past days have been any sort of vacation, but, other times, I would be able… Continue reading A Few Days
The day began really early today… Much earlier than I would like. The coffee didn’t have a chance to even make it to my gut before we were on our way. We were going to see a patient… younger who had been diagnosed with ALS. As typical for me, I was full of nervous anticipation. … Continue reading That Smile