The Whispers

I’ve gotten kind of used to it. Sometimes, when I enter a patient’s room, I notice some family members turn and whisper. It’s almost like when I tell people what I am lucky enough to do and they give me the heartbreaking face while lowering their voice to a whisper. Maybe it is because of… Continue reading The Whispers

All The Time

Leave it at the door Don’t bring your work home with you That might work for a garbage man or maybe a tree cutter, but those rules don’t apply to a hospice nurse. I am probably thinking about you from the moment I shut your door behind me. I am probably still thinking of you… Continue reading All The Time

Thank You

It’s a little chilly in your bathroom, but, you are sweating and have the fan strategically blowing in your face. Your color is pale, almost like a pre tanned vacation photo except you have look that alerts others you aren’t well. Eyes are sunken, the brightness that once was there is no more. The dark… Continue reading Thank You

Week Two or Weak, Too?

I have to admit that I was super apprehensive about making this career change.  Death is something that scares the bejeezus out of me.  As a critical care nurse for many years, death was often times an answer to endless suffering.  That doesn’t ever mean that I got comfortable with it.  But, because I never… Continue reading Week Two or Weak, Too?

Titanium Doesn’t Stand A Chance

“The human spirit is tougher than anything that can happen to it” C.C. Scott There are so many medical mysteries that the brightest of minds have pondered and come up with no explanation.  How does a patient who has failing kidneys and called it quits on dialysis continue to survive?  The kidneys filter out all… Continue reading Titanium Doesn’t Stand A Chance

I Wouldn’t… Would you?

Everyone talks about the benefits of a long life.  You get to see your children and your grandchildren grow and flourish.  But, is there such a thing as too long of a life?  I do believe there is.  Imagine seeing those around you disappear… You would be the only one of your siblings still alive…… Continue reading I Wouldn’t… Would you?

A Few Days

Would think that a few days away and I would be able to not think about work.  That’s the thing about nursing though – there is always something… that takes you right back into your work world.  Not that these past days have been any sort of vacation, but, other times, I would be able… Continue reading A Few Days

Day One

Nervous anticipation, fear, uneasiness, sadness and an eagerness to learn the ropes.  I’d say all of those things smooshed together is exactly how I felt this morning.  That feeling of uncertainty because I don’t know what I am doing is almost overwhelming.  Sure, I can assess a patient – but, I look for signs of… Continue reading Day One