I’ve often noticed that when people ask what I do, the response is often whispered back. I say I am a hospice nurse and most of the time, the person questioning will say “hospice nurse”, as if it were a bad word, as if by them saying it some crazy thing will happen and it will… Continue reading That’s A Dirty Word
Cuts heal. Incisions close. Infections resolve. But, does the pain of loss ever really heal? That is a question that I am often asked and quite honestly don’t always have the answer for. The complex manifestation that we call loss is such a convoluted mix of emotions, feelings, thoughts and memories. Age is a… Continue reading The square peg in the round hole
This particular blog has been hard for me to write. Not because of anything in particular, but because I had the idea for what I wanted to express, but, getting the words to flow together was another story. My words, just like our lives sometimes do, just would not meld together with any rhythmic flow. … Continue reading The Certain Uncertainty
Where you there when you could no longer speak? Was your soul still present? Could you hear us all around your bed.. talking with you… sometimes happy.. sometimes sad? When was the moment that you let go? A lot of times, when people are passing, they fall into states where they are no longer responsive. … Continue reading When Did You Go?
As I often do, I found myself thinking about things I could blog about tonight… Should I talk about the lady with dementia who responds to basically no one and nothing but responded to a chocolate doughnut I brought her? Or would it be better to blog about the man, whose wife is clearly passing,… Continue reading A Mixed Bag
When we are born, there is typically an army of people gathered to help. The doctor, the nurses, the pediatrician and let’s not forget the excited family members. Surrounded by love and kindess, a newborn transitions into this world knowing on some level that they are not alone. If no one has noticed, hospice has… Continue reading The Lucky Ones
I have to admit that I was super apprehensive about making this career change. Death is something that scares the bejeezus out of me. As a critical care nurse for many years, death was often times an answer to endless suffering. That doesn’t ever mean that I got comfortable with it. But, because I never… Continue reading Week Two or Weak, Too?
“The human spirit is tougher than anything that can happen to it” C.C. Scott There are so many medical mysteries that the brightest of minds have pondered and come up with no explanation. How does a patient who has failing kidneys and called it quits on dialysis continue to survive? The kidneys filter out all… Continue reading Titanium Doesn’t Stand A Chance
Everyone talks about the benefits of a long life. You get to see your children and your grandchildren grow and flourish. But, is there such a thing as too long of a life? I do believe there is. Imagine seeing those around you disappear… You would be the only one of your siblings still alive…… Continue reading I Wouldn’t… Would you?
Would think that a few days away and I would be able to not think about work. That’s the thing about nursing though – there is always something… that takes you right back into your work world. Not that these past days have been any sort of vacation, but, other times, I would be able… Continue reading A Few Days