The Most Vital of Signs

As nurses, we are taught to be number lovers. Blood pressure, pulse, weight, height, time of last meal, distance ambulated….you get my drift… It is one of our chosen methods of communication… Listen to a nurse giving report… it’s a complex word soup of stats, values and findings. For hospice nurses, it’s a tiny bit… Continue reading The Most Vital of Signs

Demystifying Death

The actual moment of death… the second that the heart, after years of repeatedly doing the same rhythmic movement, stops. The silence. The final breath… this can vary… as sometimes, it can be abrupt and just as regularly as one is breathing, suddenly, they stop. There could have been some warning signs – some pauses….which… Continue reading Demystifying Death

The Final Moments

She lays there… here eyes dancing between slightly open and closed… her breaths…much more pronounced now…it’s almost as if her whole body becomes a party to each deep inhale… her chest rises, but, so does her abdomen, but curiously not in harmony… her skin is sallow has taken on a waxy appearance…her cheeks are sunken…her… Continue reading The Final Moments

Can Do

You know that feeling, it’s the feeling of being in a room and all eyes are on you. You are expected to know every answer. You are expected to solve every problem. You should have the right words to comfort. You need to be able to make it all right. You need to find everybody’s… Continue reading Can Do

Nurses

It’s the dawn of another Nurse’s Week. I remember working in the hospitals and my coworkers and I would try to guess what cheesy gift we would get. Would it be a branded tumbler? An umbrella with the hospital logo? Maybe it would be a $5 off coupon to the cafeteria , which if you… Continue reading Nurses

How You Feel?

The drives between patients often is my own thinking time. The radio is off and as much as those calling and texting, my phone normally lays buzzing away on the passenger’s seat. I need to process what I have done, what I have seen, what I have heard and how it all felt. I am… Continue reading How You Feel?

How Will The Cards Fall?

I never claimed to be overly informed about a lot of professions. I don’t know what a grip on a movie set does nor can I explain what happens on an off shore oil rig. One thing I do know, with great detail and accuracy, is the life of a nurse on shift. While we… Continue reading How Will The Cards Fall?

Have You Ever Wanted To Just Run Away?

Just like many people, there are things in my life that before I did or experienced them, they were on my never ever list. Some things turned out to be unexpectedly great – like becoming a hospice nurse. Before actually working as one, my belief was that this was something that was morose and miserable.… Continue reading Have You Ever Wanted To Just Run Away?

The Love of a Mom

Before I had children, my mom would always tell me that I would never fully understand the meaning of love until I became a mother. Of course, I never believed her. I was in my late teens.. I had experience love in many ways… I loved her, I loved my friends and I had my… Continue reading The Love of a Mom

The Things We Don’t Dare Say

I can’t tell you how many times you cross my mind during the day. I can’t tell you how I worry about you and your family. I can’t tell you the times I have left our visits with a smile only to turn the corner and allow the hot tears to pour down my cheeks.… Continue reading The Things We Don’t Dare Say