The Certain Uncertainty

pexels-photo-66100.jpegThis particular blog has been hard for me to write.  Not because of anything in particular, but because I had the idea for what I wanted to express, but, getting the words to flow together was another story.  My words, just like our lives sometimes do, just would not meld together with any rhythmic flow.  As people, faced with a mountain of choices, we find ourselves at the cross roads of what we think we should be doing and what we want to be doing.

To this day, I have never met a patient that had regrets about how big his house was or how designer her handbag was.  The most common of woes is time.  That precious commodity that, try as we might, cannot be increased nor can it be taken back.  Time to laugh more.  Time to live more.  Time to just be.  Not time to worry.  Not time to pontificate over things that, at the end of the journey, have no real value.

Learning to just be is such a challenging idea for some to grasp.  Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to imply that you lose all ambition and stay stagnant.  What I mean is that you learn to appreciate what is going on all around you.  Take it in.  Realize that tomorrow will bring whatever it will bring.  We can try to change it, but, at the end of the day, our influence on tomorrow only goes so far.  There is always the certain uncertainty of tomorrow.

When an artist starts a new piece, he/she has an idea of what they want their creation to become.  Always taken into account is the fact that art, which imitates life, does not follow a purely horizontal trajectory.  Sometimes, when blips happen, the blips become the most beautiful parts of the piece because it is what makes the piece unique.

I’ve learned so many lessons from people who I know did not set out to teach me lessons.  They need my care and my empathy.  In return, I get a glimpse into how life should be lived.  Getting caught up in “What should I do? Who should I be? Where will my life go?” does nothing but waste precious time.  If you are unhappy, change what makes you unhappy.  If it means altering your life, so be it.  Those that love you will understand.  But, sometimes when we find ourselves questioning everything, the universe surprises us by showing that where we are is right where we should be.

That moment that just went by, that was a moment no one will ever get back.  That is a moment that just like the ones after, was an opportunity to just be.  Appreciation.  Gratitude.  Thankfulness.  Just be.  Go with the flow.  It doesn’t mean disengage and give up.  Fully engage and push forward until you find what sets your soul on fire.  Remember, all of our moments are numbered.  Fretting wastes those moments.  You don’t want those to be the moments you wish you had back.

By Helen Haddick BSN RN CHPN

RN who has just left critical care in the hospital for hospice. Join me for my journey Please feel free to leave comments and like if you enjoy this

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